Why

Why?

Why?
Why me?
Why am I the only one who walks alone,
Whose thoughts are drowned and bathed in black?
Why am I the only one who thinks like this?
Why can't I remember another time, when everything was happy?
Why can't I remember any other emotions?
The only one who sees the world in black,
Walking alone, unseen, a ghost
See-fuckin'- through,
Alone.
Screaming, unheard.
I want. I'm greedy.
Yet I push away.
No one can join me, no one can see me.
I don't want anyone to see this side of me.